HorseWhisperer
01-31-2007, 10:24 PM
Gee i hope nobody on here who knows me fusses about me putting this here but ga lee i gotta tell somebody so here it goes my myhattiesburg friends....
I just feel like expressing my feelings about some of the things that have been happening in my life lately... I wont mention any names for safetys sake...
October 24 2006: A friend of mine (17 yrs old) was in a truck accident, she didnt survive. She helped me through all hard times in my freshman year at high school and she rode horses. She had to be one of the most positive people i ever knew.
October 31 2006: Yes halloween. A girl very dear to my heart (also 17) had been suffering for a few months from low blood platelets... She had been in and out of the hospital and i helped her catch up with her schoolwork when she came back. Our friendship grew and grew and i got to know her as she got to know me. She died in forrest general hospital before having her spleen removed to help resolve her health problems. My heart was officially crushed. I was mad, furious, at God, my mother, my friends, at everyone... but somehow i made it through...
*Between Novemver and December things were okay, except for a few family issues: my step mom left my dad, family medical problems, etc.
January 30 2007 A.M.: My newest best friend whom i met my sophomore year and had a number of exciting experiences with and to me seemed like the only person whom i could relate to and we talked about everything. She tells me that she is moving back to her old town... :( but i could get over it.... She kinda blew me off and was so happy she was moving back, I doubt that she considered me her best friend which hurt me more than her moving.
January 31 2007 P.M.: My neighbor hasnt called in a while and noone has seen action at her house since saturday. Another neighbor calls family and friends and noone has heard from her. A deputy is called, The friendly neighbor, my mother, the deputy, and I jump the fence and try to get into the house with no success. Deputy busts a window. I put a lawn chair in front of it and without thinking jump up on it and stick my head in the window we opened... Deputy passes me the flashlight and i see her head (i think) and some red ish green stuff surrounding her hair. She was covered in blankets and we couldnt see alot. The coroner is called, the sherif is called... it is getting late on a school night and here i am at my dead neighbors house... when everyone arrives we bust the door down and my mother starts puking from the smell... I follow the deputy in and wait while he walks down the hall and then turns around to look at me and my mom and he shakes his head and we all knew...
You guys she was older but we think it was from congestive heart failure or od on her meds... I dont know if i should be telling all of this and i might get in trouble with my mom or OldLady or AuburnFan but i had to tell someone...
Through all of this I learned alot of things...
1) Life can suck big time
2) Wether you want it to or not bad stuff is gonna happen
But what i finaly realized is that i was wrong for hating God. I felt like he wasnt there for me but he always was. I miss my friends and I dont know how to handle the neighbor issue but i have faith that tomarrow will be a better day and that in the end all of this will turn out for the benifit of my good. During all of this there were some good things though, babys being born, etc... I just needed to vent and now i feel nausous again but it feels better to get it all off my chest. Please excuse my grammar and spelling errors. Now i hope i dont get in trouble but dang it feels better to get it all out... Tomarrow is a new day and It will only be as good as i make it! :) my mom tells me that alot and she thinks i dont listen!
Thanks for lending a helping ear u guys!
I just feel like expressing my feelings about some of the things that have been happening in my life lately... I wont mention any names for safetys sake...
October 24 2006: A friend of mine (17 yrs old) was in a truck accident, she didnt survive. She helped me through all hard times in my freshman year at high school and she rode horses. She had to be one of the most positive people i ever knew.
October 31 2006: Yes halloween. A girl very dear to my heart (also 17) had been suffering for a few months from low blood platelets... She had been in and out of the hospital and i helped her catch up with her schoolwork when she came back. Our friendship grew and grew and i got to know her as she got to know me. She died in forrest general hospital before having her spleen removed to help resolve her health problems. My heart was officially crushed. I was mad, furious, at God, my mother, my friends, at everyone... but somehow i made it through...
*Between Novemver and December things were okay, except for a few family issues: my step mom left my dad, family medical problems, etc.
January 30 2007 A.M.: My newest best friend whom i met my sophomore year and had a number of exciting experiences with and to me seemed like the only person whom i could relate to and we talked about everything. She tells me that she is moving back to her old town... :( but i could get over it.... She kinda blew me off and was so happy she was moving back, I doubt that she considered me her best friend which hurt me more than her moving.
January 31 2007 P.M.: My neighbor hasnt called in a while and noone has seen action at her house since saturday. Another neighbor calls family and friends and noone has heard from her. A deputy is called, The friendly neighbor, my mother, the deputy, and I jump the fence and try to get into the house with no success. Deputy busts a window. I put a lawn chair in front of it and without thinking jump up on it and stick my head in the window we opened... Deputy passes me the flashlight and i see her head (i think) and some red ish green stuff surrounding her hair. She was covered in blankets and we couldnt see alot. The coroner is called, the sherif is called... it is getting late on a school night and here i am at my dead neighbors house... when everyone arrives we bust the door down and my mother starts puking from the smell... I follow the deputy in and wait while he walks down the hall and then turns around to look at me and my mom and he shakes his head and we all knew...
You guys she was older but we think it was from congestive heart failure or od on her meds... I dont know if i should be telling all of this and i might get in trouble with my mom or OldLady or AuburnFan but i had to tell someone...
Through all of this I learned alot of things...
1) Life can suck big time
2) Wether you want it to or not bad stuff is gonna happen
But what i finaly realized is that i was wrong for hating God. I felt like he wasnt there for me but he always was. I miss my friends and I dont know how to handle the neighbor issue but i have faith that tomarrow will be a better day and that in the end all of this will turn out for the benifit of my good. During all of this there were some good things though, babys being born, etc... I just needed to vent and now i feel nausous again but it feels better to get it all off my chest. Please excuse my grammar and spelling errors. Now i hope i dont get in trouble but dang it feels better to get it all out... Tomarrow is a new day and It will only be as good as i make it! :) my mom tells me that alot and she thinks i dont listen!
Thanks for lending a helping ear u guys!